here we go!

So, today was a little bit difficult because i honestly out of no where felt so discouraged for so many different reasons.

I can tell i have gained weight and i have been feeling so much less attractive and beautiful, which is so sad! i got up from laying on the couch and put on some make up and changed my outfit and tried to turn my attitude around. but it was hard. i feel like i have been totally slacking with school and my life and spiritually and everything and so i decided to sit down and make some true serious goals and changes.

honestly i feel so much better when i am working out and when i am eating right. I can still chet and have treats, but i feel so much more energized and so much happier when i am trying harder. i AM SO excited for classes to be finished and over because i will have a little more time to get all of our wedding thank you cards written and sent out, and Also i will have time to get more into a schedule with scripture study and working out. I am looking forward to having a new start! tomorrow is my last day of classes.

summer plans

So, tailor's best friend is having him do this thing through Advocare and he is signing taylor up so taylor can go on line and do a bunch of sales for people! I think he will be great at it. I do get suspicious because we have o pay 70$ starting off. it will be great i know but i am still suspicious! we just qualified for the southwest visa card and we are both super excited because now we can start earning points and making free flights due to every dollar we spend!

we are going to be going to nicaragua and costa rica this summer and we are trying to save up all of our monies! I hope we get enough saved so we can make that trip a reality!! It will be so much fun!

Last night I was laying in bed thinking about all of the awesome places we will get a chance to visit and I really hope we can make the trip happen!

expressions of love

So, Taylor and I were asked to give a lesson to the young women in arizona this weekend when we go home to visit our familiy and friends. My best friend is getting sealed in the Gilbert, AZ temple and we are so excited to see them.

We are going to be giving a lesson on temple marriages and why they are important. I am excited. Taylor and I have already begun preparing to give the lesson and have been practicing up what we will be saying.  Last night we practiced foe the lessons. We want to show the mormon messaged titled, "Expressions of love."

I am just so thankful that taylor and I were sealed in the temple for time and for all eternity. I was just asking my best friend how she is feeling about being married in the temple and she is also so excited. I am so exited for her. I know that the temple is where we are married for time and for all eternity with the proper authority of god that was restored to the earth through the restoration of the gospel of jesus christ.

work it out!

1.  What advertisement, TV show, movie, trend or product most annoys you in its treatment of women's and/or girl's bodies?

2.  What positive images of women's and/or girl's appearances have you seen in the media recently?

3.  Do you think that images of women/girls in the media have a direct result on how women/girls feel about and take care of themselves?
a. Absolutely b. Somewhat c. No

4.  What misconception of how women/girls are "supposed" to look would you most like to see disappear forever?

 

5.  What can NOW and feminists in general do to help promote healthier attitudes about women's and girl's bodies?

 I just took this survey on body image and what I think about myself. Taylor and I have some fitness goals we are going to be focusing on over the next 12 weeks and I am super excited about them! Basically we are going to be on a strict diet and doing specific work out routines. mY GOAL IS to get ready for a half marathon pretty soon as well! I am super excited because i AM GOING TO WORK really hard to push myself to be the greatest I can be.

I know that it will be difficult but I am super excited!!!! Next week are going to arizona to see the whatnots and i AM SO THRILLED to spend time with them! Whitey and jordan are also going to pick up their new car. iT Wwill be awesome because we will be done with school and have a nice break from work! I am so excited!

Our Family trip to Lake Powell

Like I had mentioned in my last post, we just got back from our trip to Lake Powell and it was TRULY PERFECT! I have grown up visiting Lake Powell with my family almost every year since I was around the age of 8. My favorite memories all take place at this wonderful spot and I am so grateful Taylor and I could get away for a week to stay with my 9 nieces and nephews, their parents, and my mom and dad. 

It was awesome for ht both of us to get away from work and school and really great to be around my family again for the first time since we were married! We mostly spent our time playing with my nieces and nephews, Ill be honest, they're probably my favorite thing about my family! They're so fun and always down to play with me! We brought glow sticks, some makeup, and other little fun things to keep them entertained and it was just awesome.

Taylor was SUCH a huge help the entire trip. He was always willing to do the dirty work and I appreciated his efforts so much. He was AWESOME with the kids and they loved being around him. He is so good too me. He really is. I never want to take advantage of his kindness and I want to show my own appreciation and love through my actions and my words. There was one day where I was being ridiculous (happens more often than I would like to admit), and I got a little upset. He listened to me and just told me he wanted to be better. I am so grateful for him. Honestly, he treats me the way I hope my future little girls will be treated my their future husbands. I am so thankful for my family and so thankful that Taylor and I can learn from the different parenting styles and choose to live our lives the way we feel we should! I feel like we are working hard! Trying to stick to our financial goals and trying to be happy and active in the gospel at the same time! I am sure grateful for my life. Even though sometimes Im a total idiot and don't always show that gratitude. I am grateful that each new day is a brand new start!

New Goals

So, the semester is coming to an end and I am so happy about that! The commute to SLC has been expensive and long during these last few weeks, but getting these two classes over with was well worth it! Taylor and I got back from a week long trip to Lake Powell with my family (next blog post will talk about that!) and now we are getting back into the swing of thangssss! I came back from Powell, and it was like a sudden wave of stress came back over me. I don't know what it is. I don't know how to explain it. Its like, taylor and I will have a conversation and then a flip switches and i start freaking out over money, or we have a miscommunication and then an argument and I can't seem to pull myself out of it. I feel like I put too much pressure on him and I don't know, I feel my own problems affect our relationship. my own problems affect how I treat him.

So, today I was thinking in church and I want to take it back to the basics. I want to get back to focusing on the most important things so I can get my focus right for all of the other little things. I am deciding that no matter how busy I am with work and school, I am going to get up every morning when taylor does and from 6-7am study the gospel. Its important to me. I want to get back to my missionary days and re-focus on becoming more like the Savior. As I do this, I can make a conscious effort during the day to become more like him. I want to life taylor. I want to accomplish my goals.

Discipline is the bridge between Goals and Accomplishments. Becoming more like the Savior takes serious discipline. I want to acquire that kind of discipline and work my hardest to become my very best.

Things as of recent

Well, things recently have been going well. Life is EXTREMELY busy. I am still in school for another 30 days and I am honestly JUST trying to survive the semester.

I got some exciting news,  I am on track to graduate NEXT APRIL HOLLLLA HOLLA! Taylor started school a couple of days ago and we are both working hard trying to earn and save our dollars.
So, I am going to get kind of personal in this blog post. I have been such a stress case about money. Tonight, Taylor and I got into an argument, maybe one of the most serious of ones that we have ever had. Money was the topic that got the argument started. I stress about money. Its something I am learning about myself. As the conversation got heated.  Some of Taylors inner frustrations came out. And, they broke my heart.  I want to be better at listening. I want to take his opinion more seriously. I want to show love to him all the time, 100 % of the time. I don't want to be controlling. And I want to be able to compromise with him. Not have it be my way or the high way. I realized when I listened to him how critical I have been of him lately. I don't want to be that way. I want to be loving, compassionate. I need to figure out how to approach things when we need to communicate. Ugh... it is going to take a lot of changing on my end and I want to do what ever it takes to change. I love him. I want to be his partner. I want to respect him and honor him. He is my  best friend. I want him to be successful and happy. I want him to feel happy when he is with me. I am going to be really praying for strength and the ability to overlook the small stuff. I love him so much and I never want to hurt him.