Well, things recently have been going well. Life is EXTREMELY busy. I am still in school for another 30 days and I am honestly JUST trying to survive the semester.
I got some exciting news, I am on track to graduate NEXT APRIL HOLLLLA HOLLA! Taylor started school a couple of days ago and we are both working hard trying to earn and save our dollars.
So, I am going to get kind of personal in this blog post. I have been such a stress case about money. Tonight, Taylor and I got into an argument, maybe one of the most serious of ones that we have ever had. Money was the topic that got the argument started. I stress about money. Its something I am learning about myself. As the conversation got heated. Some of Taylors inner frustrations came out. And, they broke my heart. I want to be better at listening. I want to take his opinion more seriously. I want to show love to him all the time, 100 % of the time. I don't want to be controlling. And I want to be able to compromise with him. Not have it be my way or the high way. I realized when I listened to him how critical I have been of him lately. I don't want to be that way. I want to be loving, compassionate. I need to figure out how to approach things when we need to communicate. Ugh... it is going to take a lot of changing on my end and I want to do what ever it takes to change. I love him. I want to be his partner. I want to respect him and honor him. He is my best friend. I want him to be successful and happy. I want him to feel happy when he is with me. I am going to be really praying for strength and the ability to overlook the small stuff. I love him so much and I never want to hurt him.
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